Charley,
I have absolutely no wish to argue with you. If you are saying that I am mistaken, I am willing to accept that this may well be the case. However, you have made many statements that - at least when taken literally - imply the opposite. You did, I recall, call yourself an arhat. Maybe you do not know that according to Buddhism an arhat is an ‘enlightened’ person? You have also, on several occasions, claimed to have undergone - or be in the process of undergoing - the same ‘mutation’ that K talked about. You may mean by these words something quite different from what other people (such as myself) understand by them. That’s ok. But the very black and white way in which you portray (and judge) others on the forum - almost always contrasting them with your own assumed innocence/perfection/clarity - is cause for ambiguity on this score.
Similarly, you may be correct that the recent breakdown in communication between us (on the Facts-Only: Unconscious Mind thread) was wholly my fault, and that you were responding at all times with sensitive awareness, impersonal fellowship, etc. But I felt that you did react - I don’t know to what exactly - and that this is why you refused to continue discussing the matter with me, and instead called me a “piece of work”, someone about whom one would call 911 about, etc: which I took to be deliberately hurtful comments. Why would you make such comments if you had not reacted to something? Were you responding to the particular content of what I had written? I don’t see how you were. From my point of view I was simply in the middle of a discussion with you about something that I thought we were both interested in clarifying - and I was not prepared for the sudden volatility of your response.
So it seems to me that you may be projecting onto me (and others) an image that you have about me (and others) in your mind, which makes you accuse me of things that you yourself are doing. You are intelligent enough to see this. You - I am sure - know what it is to be self-aware, perceptive about your own behaviour. So why do you not see what - to me at least - is so clearly evident?
Tell me, when was the last time you admitted to someone on this forum that you were wrong about something, or that you genuinely did have reaction to something they said?
Looking at myself, I know I am often reactive. I am interested to learn about these reactions, because this is part of self-knowledge. These reactions are a part of me - they are me in fact. I know I am self-interested at times on the forum, I can be narcissistic - meaning that I like to be appreciated by others, and I don’t like to see evidence of my being shown to be ‘in the wrong’. But I am not immune to empirical evidence revealing to me the contrary. I am not a pathological narcissist if this is what you are accusing me of (though I have known people who definitely were).
So you can take all this as being a personal attack on you, that’s up to you. But part of relationship is holding up a mirror to each other, and showing each other where we may be confused, not completely conscious, not completely aware. You are not innocent of throwing mud Charley, and neither am I. But I would rather learn about the reactions that come up in relationship (not just with you, but with everyone), than evade them all by cutting oneself off relationship entirely.
Believe what you want. But leave me alone. Go away. Go back to your own threads and speculate and theorize, and do whatever it is you like doing in here. You have your little gang of followers who admire, respect, appreciate, and can relate to your posts. So go and play with them. Just GO.