I have to share some more from the same talk as it’s relevant to what we’re discussing:
Q: To learn you have to have observation.
K: To learn you have to have observation. So how do I learn and observe? Right? Observe myself and in the act of observation learn? Now what does observation mean? Can I watch myself, all the movements of myself, without any distortion, without any previous conclusion, which will bring about the distortion - that I am good, that I am bad, that I am divine, that I am marvellous, that I am the most beautiful, lovely person, etc., etc., etc. Can I observe myself without any shadow of distortion?
Q: If I don’t try to change myself.
K: Sir, please do hold… Look at it sir. Can you look at yourself without any opinion about yourself?
Q: (Inaudible) (Sound of aeroplane)
Q: Is learning not practising, I think she’s saying.
K: Is learning not practising.
Q: (Inaudible)
K: Now do start now. Don’t let’s talk about the baby, but do start. Do start learning now. Please listen to this. Can the mind observe its activity without prejudice? Prejudice being judgement, evaluation which has already been made and through those eyes I look at myself. Can I observe the movement of myself in daily life, cooking, washing, all that, the activity of the mind, observe without any conclusion, prejudice. You say that is not possible. Wait. Do it, sir, please sir, do these things.
Q: How do you do it?
K: I am showing it to you, not ‘how’ sir.
Q: How are you showing it?
K: I am showing it to you. Watch your mind without prejudice. Can you watch it?
Q: Can I watch my mind prejudicing, can I watch that with prejudice?
K: Can you watch your mind without a judgement?
Q: Making judgement.
K: Not making judgement, sir. Look sir…
Q: Excuse me. Please excuse me - I find as I walk about here doing this and that and so on, there is a movement, a momentum of making judgements, prejudicing, that caresses my perception. I can feel its quality almost. (Inaudible) Can I observe all that without judging?
K: That is what I am asking you sir. Can the mind watch its activity without any prejudice - prejudice, conclusion, judgement, evaluation, all that - the past. Can it watch? So, until it does it is not capable of learning. Right?
Q: Do you mean observation without thought?
K: Right. Observation without thought. I didn’t want to put it that way - then you will go off into: how am I to prevent thought from interfering.
Q: Isn’t that what you have to consider?
K: What sir?
Q: How am I to look at thought interfering without prejudice, without judging it?
K: Now there is nobody to answer that question, what will you do?
Q: Squirm!
K: Squirm? Then squirm! (Laughter) But you have to answer that question, it is no good merely squirming, you have got to answer it. Life challenges you. You can’t say, ‘Well I squirm’ and leave it at that. Life says, answer it, you are a man, grown up.
Q: What does squirm mean? (Laughter)
K: What does squirm mean? You have seen a worm squirm!
Q: Sir…
K: No, sir please, just a minute sir. You see, sir, it becomes really quite impossible when your mind isn’t giving complete attention to something that demands attention. I want to learn about myself, not through somebody else’s eyes - whether it is Christ, Buddha, or the latest guru - I want to learn, the mind must learn about itself. So it says, ‘How am I to learn?’, which means I must observe. How can I observe when there is so much prejudice? There are thousands of prejudices I have, how can I observe? Then the next thing is, there is nobody to answer, how is the mind to be free of prejudice? You follow? Otherwise I can’t observe, the mind can’t observe and therefore can’t learn. You follow? So how is the mind to be free of prejudice?
Q: When I see something in myself I don’t like, that is a fact, not a prejudice.
K: I am asking madame: you have a prejudice, haven’t you? All of us have some kind of pre-judgement - that’s what it means, prejudice, prejudging something. So how is the mind to be free of prejudice, bigotry, conclusion, how is it? Nobody is going to answer me, because I have got to find out. I can’t just squirm, lie under the question, I have got to answer it to myself. Life demands it.
Q: When you see the falseness of it.
K: You see the falseness of prejudice, don’t you - but you are still prejudiced aren’t you?
Q: I don’t know, I can’t answer it.
Q: (Inaudible)
K: You are not answering sir. Answer that question for yourself sir. How is the mind to be free of prejudice? You understand? A conclusion, an image which I have built about you. Do listen sir, I have built an image about you because you are a Christian, I am a Hindu, or I am a Communist or you are something else. Now how is that mind to be free of the image it has built, or the culture has built, or the society has built, which has been implanted in the mind? How is that image to be put away? It is a question sir, you understand, don’t answer something else. The image is there, how is it to break down? To be free of it.