What I am trying to see is what happens to the words, in deep attention; (I won’t use the word “complete attention” anymore, cause it is part of K’s language…and I doubt I will ever know what he truly meant…)
In deep attention, words change; words’ link to the past is cut, by attention; in attention words are either silent, or produce silence;
K’s words probably (?) come from silence, but do I hear the silence? or do I hear the noise of my past? cause if attention is missing, words call my past, which is isolating…
How in the world is this phenomenon happening in my life ?: the thought of facing my own images about my self, appears to be so frightening !
My own “me” has created images of it self, and than it can’t look at it ?
So, the “I” creates the image, and then the “I” runs away from it. The “I” can’t possibly see it self.
Your image of yourself facing images is apparently a scary one.
This might be the age old trap (or sickness) that zen folk have called “putting a head on top of a head” - which I take to mean the self reacting to itself eg. getting angry about being sad, or feeling guilty about being silly etc
I think we get trapped there when the teachings become our new belief - our realities start to change, but we still mistake them for actual realities.
Oh!! this is interesting !!!
So, because I have never faced an image of my self, I imagine (again!!) that this encounter between the "me and the “image”, is “scary”; and of course, calling it “scary” is an image and it perpetuates the distance, or blocks the encounter…
So, I act as I have seen the issue, but then the “I” leads again and says: it is scary, don’t look !!!
It makes me laugh !!
PS: Who said "putting a head on top of a head”? it sounds good and funny !!!