“Conflict is the very structure of the self. It is entirely possible to live without conflict, the conflict of greed, of fear, of success; but this possibility will be merely theoretical and not actual until it is discovered through direct experiencing.” Krishnamurti
Why don’t I know what “direct experiencing” is? How do I find out? What am I to do if I can’t free myself from my problems because my problems are who I am? Do I not want to be free of my problems, or is wanting the problem? If it is, I can’t want to solve it without perpetuating it.
Am I unable to see what I need to see because I’m blinded by the fear of being outside of myself in an eternity so vast and unfathomable that there’s only choiceless awareness and choiceless response?
Am I asking the wrong questions, or is there no right question for a brain that can’t abandon its problems for the freedom to find out?
The question of : is it possible to live without conflict? is not only a theoretical one.
We can put the question to the test in dialogue for example - even on this written forum we can test our ability to not mechanically act from this domineering center.
You may be relating to your projections as a means of imposing what you know - but between your automatic reaction to the written words on the screen and when you finally press “reply” there is a huge opportunity to ask ourselves : do we really have to act this way?
Maybe I can let go of my need to preach, harang, argue, insult or generally act from pride and fear? Maybe I can breath calmly, reread the text and embrace this moment differently? I may not immediately become the person I think I should, but surely thats not the point?
Thank you, Inquiry, for this post. As much as I would like to, as much as I would want to, I cannot help you and it pains me that I cannot do so. I take your words here as if they were mine knowing that not even doing so can be of any help to you.
danmcderm, I apologize for intruding in your thinking here. Please allow me to comment, and I hope that you won’t mind, if the “me” is not annihilated in the desiring, then the desire is not fervent enough.
Yes the usual need for self aggrandisement, protection, self pleasuring and comfort is not sufficient.
The desire to get the good stuff is not a sufficient reason for change, it is business as usual.
There must be some need that outweighs my own self importance.