“Fear is the mind-killer.” Along with greed, hatred, delusion, anger, and other nasties. For my money, the worst of the bunch is delusion. If that’s there (and it invariably is for unenlighteneds), all hell is free to break loose.
As has been oft repeated on this thread : all the normal kids are out there gaining experience and knowledge points for their power base, in order to ensure future success.
Automatically driven along by pleasure and pain.
(Because our thoughts and emotions are like hard reality for us : this is the delusion)
Initially, I started enquiring about the self because of gaining experience and knowledge as you said. Now I do not know exactly, why I give attention to you people in this forum. I think the satisfaction in having conversations about the spiritual aspects related to life is driving me.
Conversations have a life of their own - we cannot control where they end up - I like questions first, tentative definitions, poetical descriptions - but sometimes we start shouting : “wtf! look at what you are saying man!” - and hopefully we have the clarity to remain silent when need be.
PS - re : useless answers. The answer is only useful as far as it reveals the questioner - so its pretty much useless, because by that time we have forgotten our neediness for an answer.
Yes, of course. If I believe that something is so, I really am believing that something is so (or feeling the feeling I’m feeling - thinking the thought etc)
Both reduction and magnification distort. Yet they are built into our way of thinking, perceiving, into our language and imagination. They enable us to navigate the world … but prevent us from clearly seeing what actually is.
We think that what we see/feel/know is a true representation of reality. Rather than a projection of our conditioning for the purposes of survival.
We are slaves to our projections - as if they were accurate and undeniable.
For example, I have an itch (or some other urgent urge) - we automatically scratch - if we cannot scratch, what happens?
For example, the doctors have to cut you open, but you are allergic to anaesthetics, a hypnotist manages to persuade you that nothing painful or frightening will happen during the operation - the doctors cut you open and you feel fine - why?
PS - Zazen (or choiceless awareness, goaless seeing) is far far more useful (for liberation and clarity) than explanations. (though explanations are more fun)
Can you define thoughts for us ? - you may already have the answer
In the same way that you were able to define the experience of self for us - that enabled us to see that it was fear.
Simplicity unfortunately does not necessarily tether us to clarity - such is the conflicting confusion of all the data from stored experience that rises up and confuses us