Regarding the K-quote posted by you, DeNiro, on the effect of care on the subconscious:
Can we explore the opposites of care: negligence, insensitivity, or even deliberate aggression, and their accompanying rationalizations; and consider that care is the recognition of the things that aren’t care.
I’m sensing the issues I’d rather avoid, regardless of intention or degree of visibility: the subtle, the harmful, the insidious effects of my criticisms and behaviors coming out of reaction to you and to even of myself. Do I care enough to be sensitive to the subtle, reactive avoidances of messages that oppose my self-images? to my own realizations in contradiction to what I prefer to think? And how far am I consciously and subconsciously willing to go to counter the threats?
Most of the time, the unconscious willingness is not fully unconscious. There’s an inkling of the hypocrisy that I don’t want to pay attention to. But I can’t help it. It’s too late. The cat’s out of the bag. I’ve noticed it now and can no longer ignore the subtleties, and that we’re all doing this and we really are swimming in it together, aren’t we? There’s an urge to resist seeing what I see. But I can’t pretend not to see any more. I’m responsible.
This is one of the ways to glimpse the oneness of anything we talk about; for example, the one human consciousness. Human consciousness is so very complexly interconnected; it’s just one big soup. But is interconnectedness the right description? because that implies separateness of parts. It’s just one big one, isn’t it?
We can’t effectively change or repress our insidious, destructive effects directly because if we do, they’re probably just going to find another way to leak out. Is this because something essential hasn’t been seen? But when the essentials are clearly seen and understood, why wouldn’t anyone just let go of harmful behaviors and drop them. That’s what ending is, isn’t it?
I don’t know what unconscious meditation or such things are; but I do see the value of exploring exactly what our deeper layers are up to; and to do this through looking at whatever noise the thinking mind is mustering up seems a worthy usage of energy. In fact, it’s the noise that’s giving all the clues as to what’s going on below. Maybe we just can’t see the root directly. Maybe it’s in the reflections. It’s not just about purity of listening and watching, it’s more about realizing the subtle movement of effects rippling in and out, or crashing in and out, whatever the case; about caring enough to take on being aware of this. That’s a heavy responsibility. I mean caring in the full sense of the word. I mean caring about you and me and everybody and everything all the time. What is that care? even right now this very moment of our participating with each other here?